HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Many happy returns of the day to your soul,
Looking into your eyes we feel the brightness of candle,
Remembrance and love is our only gift to you,
Feeling your warmth we pass our days lonely,
But still we are living and remembering each and every moments,
Wherever you are we wish you peace and greets,
Happy Birthday to you Sancheeta!

Abhijit and Shibalika

????????????? Why

Was i not honest?

Was i not pure?

Was i not true?

A shimmering soul?

Didn't i love u?

Didn't i teach u the art?

Didn't i worship?

A soul in faith with trust?

Where did i go wrong?

Why is it always me?

Did i really deserve this?

Oh! just tell me this.................

WHY? WHY? WHY?

Endless Love

True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Be blessed by by blessing other people.
..........Mathew

There is no fear in love but perfect love casts out fear.
..........John

The grandest moral and ethical goal of humanity means nothing without love.
..........Corinthians

In extreme assaults of stress God invites us to rest in his eternal embrace.
..........Matthew

God continues to love us even when we don't feel the same towards Him.
.........Romans

The Lord doesn't always solve our problems instantly. Sometimes he permits us to walk alone through the 'valley of the shadow of death.' But he is there with us, even in our darkest hours. We can never escape his endless love.
........Psalms

All the above quotes are the words of inspiration of the nature of love written by Richard Daly.

In this world very few person knows the meaning of love. Love brings responsibility. In the month of April when Sancheeta departed to eternal world I was totally blind. Many of my near and dear ones didn't even communicated with me. Only one question I had to face "Why it happened". I believed on the above quotes and tried to cover my life. But after the incident my life totally shattered. Only two persons and Sancheeta's family tried to help me out from the situation and to face the reality. They spared every time with me to make me understand that its reality. Still now they are with me. Even my daughter helped me to feel the reality. Today somehow i am surviving for my daughter and my small family. My small family loves me a lot. They are motivating me to live a normal life. But I don't know whether I can or not. Still I am trying and will try further.
I dedicate gratitude and lots of love to those two persons, Melissa and Rimli who is not a part of my family but still I think they are my family whom i met through Sancheeta. Melissa and Rimli continuously helped me to recover from the tragic incident. Its a god's grace that they helped me out to come into reality.  
Everybody have to live their life by their own. But still love has to exist. Those who are acquainted with Sancheeta can never forget her. Still she is with us and we feel every seconds. And will forever. 

 

2009: Letter to Husband

good morning,

thank u for giving me the diary. today i have started writing in it. thank u for one more thing. thank u giving me the space to write again. may be if i was in ur place i would have never been so open minded for letting u stay connected elsewhere. ur understanding level keeps me out of this world. i realise each and every moment since i met u that i could never have found a better husband than u. thank u for making me so lucky. its not about just loving each other it's about making our love exist. and i admit that u are far more effortful than i am. u have never tried to change me but accepted me in every form of mine, that includes my illness, my disadvantages, my rudness, my not being helping u to add more money by working out.still u have made my life so easy, so lovely. . u work so hard day and night for the sake of us, i don't know how to comfort u. i don't want to see u in stress. i always love ur happy smile. i forget all my discomfort regarding my health. u must always keep smiling and i will be happy to be the cause of ur smile.

N.B Written by Sancheeta Biswas when she was alive and it is unedited. 

Reckon of Life

What is the purpose and meaning of life? Everyone has to search what is his purpose and mission of life in the light of which one is pursuing one’s life. Victor Franki’s classic Man’s Search for Meaning is story of inspiring tales of Nazi concentration camp. To him each man has unique meaning of life that he has to discover and live for it. If there are sufferings in life, these sufferings have unique meaning that individual has to find with his own efforts. There is a quotation of Nietzsche’s “He who has a why to live can bear with almost anyhow” with authenticity. One has a freedom of choice regarding transformation one’s environment that suits one or other portfolio of one’s passion or purposes.

We everyone has a choice to look at bars or stars.

Though I have discussed which is already known to everybody but it is somehow in our subconscious stage so if we bring it to our conscious mind then we can transform ourselves. We like to see mirage which is not our life. 

This picture is taken in Shillong, State:-Meghalaya, India

Anniversary

Today is our 12^th marriage anniversary. Praying for your soul to rest in peace and will wait for you in dreams. It is known that “dreams never come true” but we have a desire which cannot be controlled. Missing you a lot. 

Perfect Woman

She is a perfect child of her mother when she came into the world of existence,

She is a symbol of love to beloved ones,

She is a symbol of god as she can create lives,

She loves everyone without any commitment,

She is a perfect life partner without any urge,

She loves her life partner as a son, as a husband, as a best friend,

She does not have any materialistic urge from her beloved once,

She gives birth to offspring’s to see the earth,

She protect them from every odds,

Only desire of her to get love from her beloved once,

She has a desire to get love from her husband which she never got from her beloved once,

Her desire from her husband is to love her soul,

She is a perfect woman.